Chapter 38 Preview

Excerpt from dinner between Christian and Ana:


“So, what do you want to do on Saturday?”

He raises an eyebrow and gives me sly smile. “You want a play by play of everything I’ve been fantasizing about over the last six weeks?”

“Not that part of Saturday. Your mother called me this morning, she wanted to know what you want to do for your birthday.”

“My birthday?”

“Yes, Saturday is also your birthday.”

“Really?” He takes his phone out of his pocket and flips through the apps, presumably for his calendar, and then lets out a surprised, huh, before leaning back in his chair and eventually smiling. “I guess that really changes what I’m allowed to ask for…”

I shake my head, but don’t bother hiding my smile. “I’m looking more for family oriented requests. You know, activities your parents and little sister can be present for.”

He frowns. “I don’t really want to make a big deal out of it. We have more important things to worry about right now.”

“I disagree. I think we need normalcy and things to celebrate now more than ever. This year’s been tough, but it’s also been really great and we keep forgetting that. We’re engaged, we’ve had a baby, we’re only a few weeks away from moving into the house that’s going to be our daughter’s family home… there’s so much I’m grateful for and all of that is because of you. I want to celebrate you, Christian. We all do.”

He takes a deep breath, considering the sincerity of my words for a moment, and then nods. “Okay. We’ll take the yacht out for the weekend and bring the whole family along. We’ll all be together and we won’t need as much security so Taylor can stay behind to continue his investigation.”


See you Monday!

xoxo WishingMrGreyWasHere



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Raymond Steele Sr. wasn’t like the tech tycoons that made up the majority of Seattle’s wealthy businessmen. His fortune wasn’t made from the mattresses he sold all over town and his power didn’t come from the size of his empire. Raymond Steele’s influence was built on blood and loyalty. That loyalty made everyone in his closely guarded circle family, even if they didn’t want to be, and family doesn’t turn on one another, nor does it disintegrate when the figure head dies. Family is forever. This is Christian Grey’s conundrum. He has spent his entire life paying for the sins of his father, Raymond Steele Jr.’s right hand man, and his ties to the family have threatened his career, his relationships, his freedom, and his life. But as he begins to unravel the secrets of the Steele legacy and attempts to escape the reign of Seattle’s most notorious crime syndicate once and for all, he learns that there’s only one way to leave the family. Seize power, or die trying.

Unfortunately for Christian, he’s not the only player who wants to change the game.


Things you should know:

  1. This story is OOC (Out of Character) and AU (Alternate Universe) which means there are changes to the backstories and personalities of some of the characters. You’ll have a better time if you drop some your preconceived notions about these characters going in. Their motivations are different, and, for a lot of them, their roles and qualities are very different. Clean slate.
  2. If I could categorize this story by Genre the way you do on FanFiction, I would choose Romance/Drama/Crime/Suspense
  3. This story will be rated M for explicit sexual content, graphic violence, strong language, and intense situations.
  4. This story will be poly-protagonist, meaning multiple POVs throughout the whole story.
  5. You should expect other/different romantic pairings in this story, for multiple characters.
  6. There is no BDSM or sexual history with Elena Lincoln in this story, Christian’s background is completely different. He’s not adopted, he is the biological son of Carrick Grey and Grace Trevelyan. No crack whore past or related trauma.
  7. I’m going to remain very tight lipped about this story, because there are going to be some (what I hope will be) shocking twists and turns along the way and I want my readers to experience that. Therefore, I will not reveal if it’s HEA (Happily Ever After), I will not reveal if there is cheating, and I will not reveal the fate of any character. It’s all going to unfold organically.
  8. There will be main character deaths.
  9. There are original characters in this story, both good and bad.
  10. This will not be a series the way that Shades of Fifty was. One book only.

Family Trees

Raymond Steele Sr. (Married to Anastasia Steele I)

Raymond Steel Jr. (Married to Carla Wilks)

    • Vincent Steele
    • Anastasia Steele

Walter Steele    


Carrick Grey (Married to Grace Trevelyan)

    • Elliot Grey
    • Christian Grey (Married to Leila Williams)
    • Kate Grey
    • Mia Grey


John Lincoln (Married to Elena Kelly)

    • John Lincoln Jr. (Died as an infant)
    • Calvin Lincoln
    • Thomas Lincoln
    • Camilla Lincoln


Coming after the outtakes for A Stronger Shade of Fifty have been completed

The Results Are In!



haha, jk. (Although, not really… he is. To be clear)

It looks like the majority of you are okay with posting the next chapter in its entirety next Monday with a teaser on Friday. I will also be announcing my next story tomorrow, not posting a chapter, just posting the title and a short summary, plus some quick facts that I know a lot of you will want to know before deciding whether or not you want to read it. But I hope it will all make you really look forward to it, because I am so excited. I think it’s going to be some of the best stuff I’ve written 🙂

As for this post, I will now be using this to officially be taking requests for outtakes. 


If you haven’t read the outtakes for Different and Broken (you should do so because the outtakes for Broken are my favorite of the whole series), they are scenes from a different character’s perspective, or a scene we know about or have a vague idea about, but didn’t actually get to see because Ana wasn’t there. For instance, maybe you really want to see Kate and Elliot’s break up, or you want to know what was really going through Christian’s head when Ana told him she was pregnant, or maybe you’ve just always had a burning curiosity about what Luke and Taylor talk about while they’re waiting around for Christian and Ana to finish doing it all the time. Just put a description of the scene you want to see and the character’s perspective you want to see it from in the comment section of THIS post, and once we get close to the end of Stronger, I will go through the comments, note which scenes I think will be interesting for everyone or will add new insight to the story.


Note: Please leave your comments/requests on THIS POST ONLY. I won’t go through the reviews of every subsequent chapter to find outtake requests.

If you want to find this post in a few weeks after it’s been buried under new chapters to add another scene or idea for outtakes, it will be categorized under the wishing… section in the top menu bar. Just click the word “wishing…” and you’ll find all of my non-chapter posts.

Also note that while I am willing to accommodate as many requests as possible and I know there will be more for Stronger because so much of the story is shrouded in mystery, I will not be able to accommodate ALL requests. Otherwise, I’m pretty sure I’d just have to re-write Stronger from Captain Conspiracy’s perspective. haha

Actual photograph of Captain Conspiracy. Photo Credit: Leila Williams

Thanks again for your understanding after I didn’t post this week. I know a lot of you said very kind things to make me feel better about it, but I really do hate not having something to give you every week. I’m going to be better. No more missed posts until the end of Stronger, I promise. That’s only like 8 weeks… 9 weeks? Or maybe 20, who even knows. Sighhhhhhhh.



Author’s Note

I’m the worst.


I’m moving this weekend and while I was going to desperately try to not let that affect my posting schedule, this week IRL just became waaay to busy for me to find any writing time. I know, I know, this is starting to happen way too often and this definitely isn’t the way I want to run this site, so I have a proposition for all of you.

Chapter 38 looks like it’s going to be a monster, but there is a clear cut transition scene in the beginning/middle where I could theoretically split the chapter. I have about 3,000 words of the beginning part finished and would probably only need to write about 1,000 (ish) more until I get to where I think I could split the chapter. This could be finished today and posted either tonight (Midnight Eastern Standard Time/9 PM Pacific Standard time, US) or tomorrow morning at the time I would usually post on Mondays. Then I will do everything I can to finish the rest of the chapter by next Monday to continue posting as usual.

Pro: no missed updates, just one late one.

Con: shorter chapters, and while there is some important information in both sections, there’s a lot of fluffy goodness (desperately needed, right?) but splitting the chapter over two weeks could feel as though it’s dragging the plot out.

The other option would be to keep them together and post it all as one giant chapter next Monday. IDK. I’ll let you guys vote.


Because I do feel bad, and I don’t want you guys to think I’m okay with not posting as often as I have been, in addition to letting you choose how you want the next chapter posted, I will give you another option of something I can give to you in pennance.

Option 1:

I WILL have this entire chapter posted by next Monday, so I can give you a teaser later in the week, probably Friday, like I did with chapter 37.

Option 2:

I’ve finished the detailed outline of my next story that I will begin posting AFTER I finish A Stronger Shade of Fifty, and the outtakes, so I can post a brief summary of that so you’ll have an idea of what’s coming in the future. Because I’m hype about it!

Option 3:

I can start the post for outtake requests where you all can leave comments about which scenes from A Stronger Shade of Fifty you would like to see from a different character’s perspective, or scene’s we’ve missed because Ana wasn’t there… or unconscious… This will remain open until the story has concluded so you can continue adding scenes until the Stronger is finished.

Option 4:

All or any combination of options 1-3.


Again, I’m sorry there’s no update today. I really hate that I don’t have anything to share, especially since it feels like there weren’t really extenuating circumstances, I just didn’t finish. I hate that, and I am sorry. I’ve been reading your comments all week, and I love all the speculation! I think before the big baddie gets revealed, I might post a poll just to get an idea of who you think it is! Should I give a hint????

very vague hint:

Over the course of all of the comments/reviews, in all of the chapters of Stronger, someone HAS guessed correctly who it is. His name (or at least description of who he is) is out there, but which guess is correct? I am eager to see your speculation continue 🙂

So, in the comments of this very unnecessarily long Author’s note, please leave your vote of what you would like to have posted this week, split the chapters or post all as one next Monday, and your votes for the options listed above.

Again, I’m really sorry I don’t have anything to post this morning. But I promise on all things good in this world (See: Jamie Dornan) that I really am going to make it a priority to see that this doesn’t happen again.

Distracting Jamie Dornan Gif




Thank you!

This weekend I surpassed over 1,000 followers and I wanted to take a quick second to thank each and every one you. Leaving FanFiction was a scary thing at first. I thought I would lose my entire audience and sharing this story with you is seriously the highlight of my week, each and every week. But it’s actually been great being able to post here, on my own site. So, thank you for coming along with me. Thank you for debates in the reviews and your constant encouragement. I truly hope the end of Stronger, and this series, lives up to your expectations, and I hope, when it’s over, you’ll all continue on with me to the next adventure.


I don’t have a bonus update, I just don’t have the time to turn out chapters the way I used to anymore. BUT, here’s a little teaser for chapter 37, courtesy of Elena Lincoln 😉

I’ll never forget the first time I heard her voice. My husband was gone (again), I’d been drinking, and I was lonely. Solitude has never been my forte, it gives me too much time to think. My head was swimming with alcohol and memories of my lost sister and I needed a distraction. It was late in Cambridge, past the time I expected Christian to have parted ways with his brother for the night, so I picked up my phone and dialed his number, thinking at least I could distract myself with my vibrator and another round with my submissive. My dutiful, obedient, faithful submissive.

“Hello, Christian Grey’s phone.”

Those are the first words Anastasia Steele ever spoke to me, and to say they came as a shock would be grossly understated. Christian had been forbidden to have any form of contact with the opposite sex while he was at Harvard. He was mine after all, and I had no intentions of sharing him. But one week into his very first semester, I’d already caught him breaking the rules, and even over the phone, there was something about this girl that had the hairs standing up on the back of my neck. I knew she was trouble. What I didn’t know was that she would eventually lead to the complete and utter annihilation of everything I’d worked so hard to build.

See you Monday!




The Worst Author’s Note Ever


So, I know I left the last chapter on a bit of a cliff hanger (a minor one really… right?), but unfortunately I’m not going to be able to post on Monday. My mother passed away very suddenly and I am devoting the next week to being with my family.


I’m sorry to leave you all in the place I did, but thank you for your understanding.



Trigger Warning


I know that several people have a difficult time with certain topics, so before I post the next chapter, I wanted to put out a warning. Chapter 28 contains material that may be sensitive to some people. If you are someone who would like to avoid difficult subject matter, I would encourage you to reach out to me privately (which is actually easiest through Facebook) and after the chapter is posted I will give you the basic information you need to know in order to move on in the story from here, without all the gory details.

Additionally, for those of you who are having difficulty with the pronunciation of Calliope, please see the helpful video below:



Memorial Day!

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to give you all a heads up that I’m going into the mountains for the long weekend and will not have any internet access, so I will NOT be posting chapter 27 on Monday. I will have access to jet skis though, so at least we all know that Elliot would be proud.

I will also be taking the full week off so that I have extra time to make sure that I have everything set up the way I want it before we move into this next arch because, for those of you who have been waiting for the first big move, it’s coming…

(More on this in a couple of weeks)

I hope you all have a great Memorial Day weekend, and thank you to all of my new subscribers!






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Hi everyone!

I’ve finally done it! The outtakes have been edited and have been posted.


For those who don’t know, the outtakes are scenes from both A Different Shade of Fifty and A Broken Shade of Fifty from a different character’s PoV, (Mainly Christian’s). There can either be the other character’s take on what happened or scenes we didn’t see because Ana wasn’t around.

To find them, simply go under the main book menu and at the bottom you’ll see “ADSOF Outtakes” or “ABSOF Outtakes”. If you hover over the outtakes submenu, another submenu will come up with all of the coorisponding chapters.

I hope that makes sense, haha.





Fifty Shades Missing

Hey everyone,

I got a request on Facebook about a week ago for my very first story, Fifty Shades Missing (Other aliases: Fifty Shades Down and Fifty Shades Continued). As you may be able to tell from the multiple titles, I was very indecisive and impatient when I first began writing, and I feel like that was reflected in the story telling, which is why I deleted it off of FanFiction in the first place. The writing isn’t great, but it was a first effort, and I learned a lot, and without this story I would have never started A Different Shade of Fifty, so I’m happy I put it out there.

For those of you who have requested this story, I hope you enjoy it. For those of you who are simply curious and want to take a look, I just want to give you the caveat that this is not nearly the caliber of Shades of Fifty. Still, I hope you will enjoy it for what it is.

Also, sorry if you got a billion emails. I tried to take the website offline while I posted but I was informed that didn’t work. Again, my apologies.

For those of you who haven’t subscribed, please do so!

Lots of Love,